Wednesday, December 9, 2009
My heart
Actually i should have expected, but i think that i can't accept the reality. My heart full of darkness right now, can i end my life just like that? Nope, i shouldn't. Lord does not want me to do that. If i choose to end, meaning i have got my judgment. Yes, that's hell. Hell belongs to a place where nothing i can fulfill my needs and wants. I need water, no water ; I need food, no food ; I need clothing, no clothing ; I need shelter, no shelter. It just like a place where our soul is burnt thoroughly without any ways to enter the heaven. Its can be imagined that frightening, but when i really get there. I will be more frightened because i lost my heart.The days have passed, we have been together since April 26, ended with half year relationship. The days we smile, the days we sad, the days we comfort each other. It was kept on circulate in my mind. I can't have a good sleep because of it. Every moment i wish that when i wake up, i will saw a message from you. But its hard right now. You deserved to get better one. Forever it is, I'm a Christian.
We can't change our fate, but we can still change our life. Even the days are hard, i wish that you will be happy. My hope on you not just this, there is still a lot of wishes i have never made. I wished that you positive in life, I wished that you find a better ones, I wished that you can more independent. And right now the 3rd wishes you did it. I'm getting colder and colder. Its also the time where i shall self-recover. Hope so, even if I'm recovered. You still my love one. The words i have said to you, I'm very meant it. But I know that when both keep cold with each other, I just felt that my heart was soured like a bottle of vinegar poured to my heart.
What ever it is, my heart to you have not changed before. Hope that you will find me someday if there is anything i can do for you. Even if you need me, I'm always be there for you. Farewell, my beloved.
this is my carefree love ;
Wednesday, December 09, 2009
Wednesday, December 09, 2009
Thursday, July 9, 2009
well, its morning le...... few more hrs, i nid to sit for my midterm......... today, my heart very nervous...... i juz wandering much........but of coz, i noe i hav study all the topics...... juz lack of revision...... i hope i will fine in the exam...... Most important, i hope tat bb nie nie will forgiv me.........Sorry for wat i hav did~~~~ take cares my dear.........
this is my carefree love ;
Thursday, July 09, 2009
Thursday, July 09, 2009
Sunday, June 21, 2009
OMG.......From tis pic, i can see myself tat i hav increased my fattiness much much >.< Bla Bla Bla~~~ i wan keep fit le, no eat at all liao.............fatty desmun...... besides, actually my cousin post up the photo to the blog if not i oso can't seen through got such pic~~ anyway....i was still having phone tim.......
tis few days, mayb i still can't handle my time management properly......so, i hav forget alot time to write in blog.......I hope i can faster suit to my new learning enviroment as here, i think i still can put on my effort to make sucessful business here......As the days come, mayb i will become more n more business minded as i used to hav it, if not, i can;t compete with the players here.......Finance~~ quite a new learning for me as its sooner will talk about shares...... N my earning goes on with it.......Probably, i wan to take my ACCA in year 3 as its hav a better option for me to go........tis year, i hav taken muet too~~ most probably the war began in october....... I hope i can handle all the prob things now....As the stress keep on increasing wherby i'm working hard to ease all of them n change to positive energy.......Jia you jia you ^^
Today is father days, pai seh, i'm a naughty boy, i din even say a wish in phone to my daddy work in singapore.......sigh, i will sms it later le.........Hope daddy hav a healthy n ease life ther~~~
Tml take train at 4.35am le..... i think i hav to stop here le.....byez, bloggie..... MIz BB~
this is my carefree love ;
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
miz bloggie..... i hav been long time nvr blog for long time le....... tis few days le, i hav gone through the days of boring in my new learning campus........ well, i can't hav any regret of wat i hav chosen for my course, as i can't expect tat the enviroment here is far more things for us to learn.......I felt behavior from ppl here are not tat same behavior in kampar....... mayb is becoz of population, crime rate n attitude of people lead to not much enjoyment can be found here.....tis few days, as i said, boring, but still hav small things to do like cleaning house, reading notes, go to lecture class and others which are more like handling a home......... i miz the days in kampar......Talking about me with bb, i always very hope bb will take care herself le......as she is weak in take care of herself....... Hope bb will think positively as no matter wat happens....it is also an essential way to lead bb to go for advanced studies.......Hope tat bb will get rid of painess everyday..... I'm willing to handle all the stress tat u hav if u share with me..........as i love u as much..... we should face through all the probs together all the time.......No matter how the things change, my mind still the same right now...... Loving You BB nini..........as i always believe tat, if we can keep all the time positively thinking, we will hav a happy days for all the time...... I'm willing to learn to control more about my emotion......as i'm oso a person who likes to think negatively....... i'm oso believe tat if we all the time happy, we can face all the problems as challenge.......whatever it is....... I wish u will work hard with me............. BB Des always SUPPORTING BB nini all the time....... LOve yeaz~~~~
About myself, i dunno what am i thinking right now...... as i know it will burden me alots becoz i hav plan tis now as it is still early..... wherby, i'm wish to take acca course during my year 3 training started....... Thinking of it, it has alots of obstacles ahead as it is oso not an easy way to let me go through...... I will slower than ppl who hav taken degree in accounting.....n they will still left last part of the professional body papers...... while i will hav a lot to be chased in my year 3 finance..... but whatever it is, finance is still my interest, becoz i like to analyze anything relates money........it is still a strategic planning and mayb it will take me 5-6 years to complete what i want........ Second problem, wher is the money come from? sigh....... probably i hav to take acca course after i hav a stable job or loan which i can borrowed........Anyway, it still hav 2+ years to go....... if i would like to take tis big challenge, probably i nid to hav more supports from close people......i'm still a human, which i'm still hav my weaknesses as well.....i can't be 100% confident for all...... i'm still nid hav some cares, consoles and advise....... i wish i can learn from more independent from now......
Anyways, i hav bla bla bla for half hr le........... Stop here.....!
this is my carefree love ;
Tuesday, June 09, 2009
Tuesday, June 09, 2009
Monday, May 25, 2009
well, today is my last day in ipoh.....tml i hav to transfer my packings to kl for my studies....... sigh, days gone dam fast le, i will be less seeing baby soon, miz her much much...... hope baby can take care of herself, eat good, sleep well, and study excellence for her future prosperity career...... I hav juz finished packed up..... its very very alot er.... i still tot i'm migrating tim.....sigh, i hav to study soon le...... hope i hav a smooth journey ba~~~
this is my carefree love ;
Monday, May 25, 2009
Monday, May 25, 2009
Friday, May 22, 2009
Early morning, i hav gone out with my mum to fix car...... The car is goin to prepare for my further study soon..... I hav my breakfast with my mum though..... When i at my grandma hse, i ask my mom to teach me how to cook "la la".... mummy jau go pasar buy for me le........ Soon, i follow wat my mom told to prepare the ingredients to cook for la la...... (pai seh i dunno wat la la english call, if anybody knows, pls teach me tis small little guy.....thx ^^) well, the ingredients are soy sauce, garlic, ginger and dry chilli....... haha, i cook until excited adi.... seeing those la la open their mouth.......psps..... but unfortunately, the la la mummy bought today not tat fresh, n the la la flesh not tat good to eat le.... Nvm, nxt time cook again ^^..........Afternoon, i still nid to continue my work to have service for my car..... indeed, many parts of my car has been changed..... i oso can't expect tat my car are more ec for me to drive le.....I'm very grateful to my mum tat she has spent alot on me juz for my further studies..... "LOVE DEAR MUMMY"....but tis oso lead me to feel tat i'm a bad boy..... waste mummy alots of money....>.<, i'm bad......... Hope i can finish my degree faster to repay wat i hav did, even for now, i hav to treat my mom more better than wat is now........
Around evening, i bring bb go for tea time..... we go n hav some things to eat in Mc. D, well...I feel relax when goin with bb, Her cute cute face has lead me to put down alots burden temporary....... Today, i very good.... i feed bb, hahax of coz, she got feed bak me oso....... After tat, we go n hav a walk in Tesco.... i nid to look for some goods before goin to kl......sigh, i hav juz bought little things...... but nvm, i can save more money without wasting now.....^^
I hav to stop now le.....11pm adi.... "BB nini, whers my butter mush mush >>__<<"~~~
this is my carefree love ;
Friday, May 22, 2009
Friday, May 22, 2009
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
I have gone to kl to check for my accomodation today, early morning i hav to challenge my exhausting feel..... I went to kl by bus, Thx to Jemy, she has become my partner to fetch me to look for the owner...... Its quite impressive when i first look for the view of my new hostel....... The house indeed very big, it can accomodate more ppl, so guys n gurls if u wanna come n visit me, u dun hav to worry about live le.....psps~~ My room was nice n wide, but sad, not everything is provided, it has provide air cond n table....but no chair, bed, cupboard, fan and so on...... sigh....tis i hav to handle my own again liao.......No money le >.<, spend me alot..... it does not provide washing machine too ne...... tats make me burden alot nxt time to go for doby..... but overall, i'm satisfy for it le.......Hope ptptn will help me soon also....... After that, Jemy brought me low yat to buy some IT products, well, today no as people mountain people sea......haha, <-----chinese proverb, becoz today is week days.... very fast we hav finished buying ther the product le..... den Jemy brought me to look for Ikea products, we hav searched through a nice table for each of us and a nice wheel chair for me too..... I decorate my room adi i will upload the photos soon le...... When i hav bought my returning ticket, i brought Jemy to plaza damas to se my working place last time......gosh~~ Fogal Meat Market name has changed to "The Blue Cows Cafe" lols, its quite funny though, and it juz a slightly change of the management onli but the rest of the things are still the same...... furthermore, the price for those sausages, steaks and meat products increase price too......its very very dam ex le........Well tats all for tat.....and i'm goin bak hometown at 7.45pm.
Exam results out adi....., i hav knew the results through my phone at first...... I juz got to know my grades for the subject onli while i dun really know my cgpa when i'm in kl...... i'm relieved tat i can continue to increase a little bit of my cgpa at last since i hav drop my cgpa in semester 2....... praise lord, But anyway, i oso have to evaluate the mistakes i hav done in semester 3....... tis is the same mistakes too turning on n on each semester..... that is slacking..... I'm din work more hard enough, i'm worry of my degree soon since it will be double or triple harder than foundation le.....i juz wandering wat results i will be if i continue like tis......... Hope so i can change it faster........ ok i have to stop now.....byez
this is my carefree love ;
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Wednesday, May 20, 2009